Hi, Assalamualaikum
Today. i felt something missing. But i cant refind what it was. I felt like something I really needed. Something that real far awayyyyy from me. It seemed like I lost myself in this feeling. Then, I'm making my day and it was so different! I'm curious and I couldn't described what I was looking at. I just kept remind myself to be awake. But, it failed. I kept thinking although I have no idea. So, I slapped myself and yelling WAKE UP ! and again it was failed. And I hate myself just all of a sudden. Weird. Ya, Obviously awkward. Okay. I'm standing on my foot. move on to my room. I locked the door and crying out loud alone there. Without nobody besides. Nobody supports. Nobody lend their shoulders and nobody listens to me. I'm alone and alone. Maybe it suited by myself. I'm used to it. Like usual I carried my problems by myself. After all of this, I felt better. And finally, I've found it. Ya, I MISS YOU ALLAH SWT. . I will down on my knee gratefully if I could be with you right now. But its okay. I will keep waiting the day when we will meet together. INSYAALLAH.
